Saerileth

I am working on a computer game with a few friends for one of our courses this semester. I can't reveal too many details at this moment, but it will be a competitive card game / fighting game hybrid with strong tactical elements. It's a very ambitious project and I am in charge of designing, painting, modelling and texturing all assets. It's going to be a very busy but fun few months.

I will be uploading sketches, concept art and renders as we go along, so if you're interested, stay tuned!

I've had a look through my old sketchbook today, the one that houses some of the images I am most proud of amongst all my creations. Some of these pictures are more than four years old, and now that I think about it, I haven't really drawn at all in the past two. Whenever I came across a good one, I found myself thinking, "did I really draw that?", immediately followed by "I could never do that today". Some of them are unfinished, and I am tempted to fill in the blanks... but I'm afraid to touch them. Too scared that I might ruin what I started.

There is a single last page left empty in that sketchbook that I have never had the courage to fill, for fear that it might not be perfect. For how could anything less do in the company of my oldtime favourites?

The irony is that I have held off buying a new sketchbook (after all, the old one isn't full yet) for ages now, so I carry this blank page around with me wherever I go, and when I feel like drawing I stare at it instead, paralysed by my own expectations. I am used to spending hours infront of an empty sheet trying to decide what I'm going to draw by now. The more painful sort of art block is knowing exactly what you want to draw, but being unable to. I have an entire backlog of ideas, visions I want to put to paper, but I feel I lack the abilities and the talent to do them justice.

So this is the sad truth about why I have hardly uploaded any drawings in several years. This has been going on for a long time now, but I have just today found the means to put it into words.

Commissions are (tentatively) open!

So, I've received a few requests lately, so I decided to make this official. You can commission me if you'd like something similar to the jewelry pieces in my gallery, or something original altogether.

I say tentatively, because my time is rather limited, and I can't yet say how many orders I can fill. Please also bear in mind that it might take me a few weeks to complete an order.

And please, if you do contact me, but later decide against commissioning me, please tell me! It's ok to change your mind and I can perfectly understand that, but it's very rude to keep me hanging. Understand that I put a lot of thought into my projects and may already do sketches or test colour schemes after initial contact. It also happens that I turn down commission requests when I think I have to many orders already, and it's very frustrating to have those disappear on me without so much of a notice. I know most of you don't do this, so please do not feel offended by my ranting. I had a few bad experiences lately, and had get this off my chest.

If you are interested in commissioning me, drop me a note and we'll see how it goes from there.

THIS QUESTION IS ALREADY ANSWERED!
I've received so many wonderful tips and helpful advice, all my questions have been ansewered several times over. Thank you so much for all you help!

As you can see in my gallery, I like to do highly detailed, about hand-sized figurines. I like the slick smoothness of real clay, but there's the shrinking ploblem. What I'm using at the moment is a lightwight, air-hardening substance called EfaPlast that is quite cheap. The problem with this Material is that it never gets all that hard in the first place and that it is resoluable with water. Which is fine when you want to correct things, but not so fine when my water-based acryllics soak the material through and then trap the water within when they're dry.

So I'd like to ask what you think about other brands of sculpting material. It should be easy to use (I'm not very patient and I don't work neat and tidy) and not too expensive. It would also need to be something that I can get my hands on here in Europe without paying a fortune for shipping and waiting half a year for it to be delivered.

What an irritating phenomena, this thing called Valentine's Day. Starting at the first of February, my mailbox gets crammed with spam, newsletters and florist advertisment. I can scarcly enter a shop without being dazzled by all the pink heart chocolat, red roses, pinky greeting cards and what not. And I've seen at least four "Love contests" on this site already.

So, even though I'm happily in love myself, I can hardly stand this time of the year. Why is it that people need a specific day to celebrate their love? Why Valentine's Day? It's so... sappy. If my partner were to send me flowers, I would be very much offended, since he doesn't do it the rest of the year, either, not even on my birthday. So doing it today would be somewhat less than sincere.

So I will be happily ignoring this date and forego all the honey-sweet loveletters.