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I've had a look through my old sketchbook today, the one that houses some of the images I am most proud of amongst all my creations. Some of these pictures are more than four years old, and now that I think about it, I haven't really drawn at all in the past two. Whenever I came across a good one, I found myself thinking, "did I really draw that?", immediately followed by "I could never do that today". Some of them are unfinished, and I am tempted to fill in the blanks... but I'm afraid to touch them. Too scared that I might ruin what I started.

There is a single last page left empty in that sketchbook that I have never had the courage to fill, for fear that it might not be perfect. For how could anything less do in the company of my oldtime favourites?

The irony is that I have held off buying a new sketchbook (after all, the old one isn't full yet) for ages now, so I carry this blank page around with me wherever I go, and when I feel like drawing I stare at it instead, paralysed by my own expectations. I am used to spending hours infront of an empty sheet trying to decide what I'm going to draw by now. The more painful sort of art block is knowing exactly what you want to draw, but being unable to. I have an entire backlog of ideas, visions I want to put to paper, but I feel I lack the abilities and the talent to do them justice.

So this is the sad truth about why I have hardly uploaded any drawings in several years. This has been going on for a long time now, but I have just today found the means to put it into words.

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Saerileth
Bumblebee
Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
Switzerland
Huh. Just crazy me. Trying to be a serious Artist, while struggling with art block and lack of talent at times.

I'm studying computer sciences at the moment, I've got two sisters and the most gorgeous boyfriend in the world (I do hope he never reads this), and I love my two cats.

Favourite style of art: Fantasy
Skin of choice: Eh... mine. I'm not into skinning people. :P
Favourite cartoon character: Garfield, Simon's Cat
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TixieLix Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the fave on my Tolkien piece! ^^
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Saerileth Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
You're very welcome. You captured the character so perfectly, it's a beautiful piece.
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TixieLix Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Glad to hear that :hug:
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Pagan-Stock Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2014
thanks really much for watching x33:hug:
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Saerileth Featured By Owner Jul 3, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
You're very welcome! I'm looking forward to using some of your Stock as references for a painting or two :)
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Pagan-Stock Featured By Owner Jul 9, 2014
really? aww awsum x33 
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SalsolaStock Featured By Owner Nov 21, 2013
We appreciate that you are watching us.  We'll try not to pick our noses or anything. ;)
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ShadowedAcolyte Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2013
Thanks very much for collecting one of my recent piece. I really appreciate it!
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Saerileth Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome. It's beautiful. :)
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Alistu Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Many Happy Returns!
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